Ok this is really kinnda weird but...?

be a child first...don't go doing things that your not ready for...i once had a Friend that had urges just like you...i used to tell her not to give her self up to anyone until she gets merry ed or till she gets older...but she decided not to listen so when she did it she regreted it...i felt sorry for her becuase the other girls just laughed about her becuase she did what they were doing so the other girls were jelous that she was a virgen and they weren't...but she ended up listening to those girl than instead of her true friend...wait and don't rush your only a child later on that feeling would go away....